Happy to remember...

March 26, 2008, the happiest day i guess in my entire life, not because it's the first day of being free from worries as a high school student, but because of the girl that i never thought would love me back. She, Miss ----- --- ------ says "YES", Hmp, actually "Mahal nga kita to be exact" while pushing my shoulder with sweetness i guess. "Talaga?" was all i said, deep inside though, my heart was beating too fast! I went home carrying a smile, insanely remembering the exact words she said! I wont promise to be with her forever because there is no such thing as forever in reality, but i can promise to love her more than i could ever love anyone else!!!

Can't rest on rest days...

It's my rest day today, but rest days here, at my sister's house are more stressful than of those schooldays. You cannot do anything but eat, wash dishes, and spend the three fourth of the rest day by sleeping. I am not fond actually of going somewhere outside, all i need is an audio player, some books, snacks, and a good, happy environment, the things that i have here, except the last that i mentioned.

But i can't complain about that, coz it would really be a burden for my parents if i would ask to stay in a boarding house. Pity me...

Nothing stays the same forever...

Twa's my first day of school, and i was surprised seeing that the number of males in the section increased, from two to seven. Thinking of being out of place fades off in my mind. I really thought my first day would gonna be hard. Like getting along with your classmates again, to hope that someone would give a smile at you, even a fake one. But i guess this time I'm wrong, few minutes after i sat on a chair, there approaches a girl and sat beside me, her name is Joyce, she's not a timid-type girl, actually, my eyes couldn't fall asleep because of hear loud treble-like voice, she's happy to be with. She talks about non-sense things during the whole period, but it often makes me smile, she's good at me. Hmm... don't get me wrong, there's no love involved. And because nothing stays the same forever, i have to take the chance of being happy until it's gonna be late...

Sometimes, it's hard to make a smile when you really don't wanna make one, it's hard to fake the way you move, the way you act, to pretend and convinced yourself that you are already a part of the group where almost all of them belong.

Worst feeling;to be alone

like a distant star, that's the simile of me. it's there when someone needs it, it's there when someone's lonely, but the truth is, no one really cares when it needs someone.


Pretending to be happy when deep inside i am not. what else would be worser than fighting for a good future alone, without any friend, without any body's caress. When the first period class is cancel, i would be surely sitting at the corner waiting for the 2nd period to start while seeing others grouping themselves together, busy talking, laughing. For just a minute, try to put yourself at my place, wouldn't it hurt you? seems no one is fool enough to talk to me, no one is fool enough to see the real me. I am not so friendly, and i was so unfortunate to belong in a not-so-friendly society.