JUST THAT

Sometimes i feel like being so small, too small to be seen by the world, but vaguely thinking if the world is playing with me. Just like if i say yes, the world will say no. if i say i can, the world will reply, you can't. If i'll give my very best on everything i do, the world seems do its very best too, more than the best i can to make things hard. I sometimes want to give up, but sometimes, it is also the world than keeps me in the game, how can someone let go of someone that makes her/him happy? There's a lot of pressure on me, pushing me down, often until i kneel to the ground. things like that can be very hard to explain. like a clown wearing a mask, behind the mask, more often than not is a frown face. Hypocrisy sometimes calms myself knowing that it prevents myself to know what i really feel.